finally decided to blog. haha. mug till 1230 last nite. managed to "kick" my bro out of the rm. hehe. slept in the aft yesterday so i couldnt fall asleep at nite, so being the guai me, i went to study. n i seriously studied. i sort of understand rate of reactions but dun rrli noe how to apply it yet. hehe. n i studied 2 chapters of chi. such a sense of accomplishment. haha. but when i woke today, juz felt lyk slacking. nvm i motivate myself to study again later. studying is fun. yeah rite. haha. tell myself that next year i'll study when i come home from school n not slack lyk i usually do now. hope it'll last. hehe. gosh my bro is irritating man. he's reading tis behind my back n doesnt even mind being called kaypoh. feel lyk slapping his face when he sticks his tongue out but cicumstances prevent me from doing so. gah. sad.
went for the post synergize thing on mon, the rally was very good man. the preacher, jeff smith talked bout visions. n he manages to sing n dance while preaching n still gets the message across.the reason y lots of us r not growing is because we dun have visions. c it. say it. seize it. n the reason y it "caught my attention" - jeremy seaward preached bout it b4 at the edge n juz that afternoon, he talked bout it during the workshop. sort of lyk hitting me 3 times wif the same thing. its true but lots of time u tell pple or juz to yourself that u need to accomplish something or mayb stick to wad u believe. but the very next moment, when temptation comes your way. bam! u juz forget everything u say or even if u rmb, its so difficult to go back. i dun make promises nowadays cos i'm juz so scared that i'll never fulfill it. but i'm juz gg to try n try n try until mayb one fine day, who noes? i mite do or go in to it. y muz tis b so difficult? y? one day u say u say u'll do tis, the next its all gone. empty promises.
whose life r u mirroring? sometimes things we do unconsiously is due to the fact that we, in our mind, do things that we think is right. we mite not even noe it but its true. the decisions we make, the way we c things, i suppose its all in the mind. it controls. but will u let it control u or will u control it? Run the race n finish it. no matter wad the results.
i leave u that question. to some of u, i mite not even make sense but juz think bout it. won't u. 4 me?