Joy to the world...

2009-05-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

Since you (YES YOU KNOW WHO!) complained u r sick of seeing the same thing everytime you decide to pop by here, even though you know i don't update anymore, just decided to post a picture up. Love you girls!

2008-03-27T15:42:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!

Yes I'm still in the office. No this is not my last week. Mann I can't believe this but I let my boss psycho me to extend. At least until he gets a full time replacement. So much for the build up of anticipating sleeping past noon and going out everyday. On the other hand, yes, I can hear you old people out there saying its a good thing that I dont have to depend on my parents for money and I'm spending my time fruitfully. Blah blah blah. Yeah fruitful if you consider the fact that i work the most 2 hours and spend the rest of the 6 hours infront of an internet accessible computer which I'm free to use. And I still get pocket money from my grandma... Its kind off funny: When the younger folks heard that I was quitting next week, they were like "Yeah take the time to go and play. Won't get much of a chance next time" The older folk started the lecture mentioned above... On a lighter note, I'm still going to take leave next wed and go out with 2 of my cutest and prettiest nieces. And some other people. Haha. And I'm thursday I'm going to take leave and sleep in. Whoot! You see, I work Mon to Fri, tuition on Sat, church on Sun. The last time I actually got out of bed willingly- millions of years ago..

To my girlfriends, yes I'll still be looking for a job with you guys. Well we planned to work together. But it's hard to find a place which actually wants to hire 6 part time girls at once. So yes, we'll see. It'll be fun if we can find it. Going to see your later :)

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Updates from my HK trip. Loved the weather there. Nope not the shopping. I only bought one top for myself. Yes no need to scream. And the dessert there is AWESOME. I'm still dreaming of their rice balls and mango desserts.Slurp...And oh the roasted goose. Other than that, it was fun hanging out with my relatives. Especially Thalia. She's like really hyper after she wakes up and had her milk in the evening, she'll start laughing and screaming and kicking her legs at the slightest thing. We came up with this phrase for her "Happy hour, free flow of saliva"... Disneyland, Ocean Park and Madam Tussards were mostly a bore. The next time I'll go back there will be when I bring my own kids. *Hint Hint* Too lazy to upload photos and besides it's not in the office computer so MAYBE next time.

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A level results. Outwardly everything was cool. Whats there to be scared of right? Its just results. Yeah right. Not when you spend 2 crazy years of your life trying to juggle so many things at once. Inside, the pressure was still there. The fear that it would be a repeat of my O level's performance was there. Thank God, everything was uncalled for. With 3 A's and 2 B's, I'm pretty sure I can get into uni. I want to get into NTU accountancy though. So yupp pretty done with all the applications and stuff. Now got to wait for the interviews and stuff... And yes, I want to burn my JC notes. Anyone interested in coming or helping me?

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Can't think of anything else to write about now. I just want to sleep. Some naughty person woke me up in the middle of the night and laughed when i sounded so retardedly sleepy.

2008-02-20T16:38:00.000+08:00

My back's breaking. Ok maybe not. But it hurts.

3 possible reasons
- My sleeping postion (Aiyah what to do.)

- My heels (Vain but not so vain me knows it bad but who cares)

- Back breaking work I did today (Nur's on half day leave so no choice)

Isn't it amazing? We people are so full of contradictions. When there's nothing to do, i complain i'm bored. When there's so much to do, i complain its tiring. Haha. Wearing heels hurt but most ladies still wear them. Smoking kills but people still smoke. Blah Blah Blah. Tell me what you want what you really really want... (Sorry, its playing on the radio) And i just did something rude. Cut a guy off in mid sentence while he's droning on about some CPF thing when I said I wasn't interested. See? Its rude but I still did it. Morale of the story you ask, I also dont know. Wahaha. My brain's not really wired right right now.

One more hour and i'm out of here. To meet Shawna and Joanne. We haven't met up in ages. Honestly. We see each other in church but thats it. So ya, I'm looking forward to it, breaking/broken back or wired left brain or not.

Just heard the looney toons tune. Haha so crappy. Reminds me of sh. And yes stop nagging, I shall go read a cooking magazine. In my dreams. Fine maybe if you get me one I will. And shouldn't magazine be pronounced as ma-ga-zine? If not it should be spelt as mehgirzin. Ok I need to get out of here fast. I'm smiling to myself and you people reading it will be like huh. And yes danica, I tend to amuse myself. A lot.

On the downside, yes I'm pissed, I don't get why you made a fuss out of a supposed big deal. And now it becomes one. I don't know if we will ever talk again but i just want to say I tried- not to mention him infront of you- but maybe it wasn't hard enough.

Ok I'm not hyper already, the monotomy of work is getting to me again. Which means I'll stop here. Till then.

2008-02-14T17:15:00.000+08:00

This year I replied everyone who messaged me, i think.

Anyway V day is so hyped up. So commercialised and all. So if anyone wants to get me stuff, anyday but today would be better. It'll be more of a surprise. Mummy's helping out at a florist and a stalk of rose costs like 10 bucks. I can have 2 totally satisfying meals with that amount mann. That said, I kind of miss V day in a girls' school, not so much the gifts, but the spirit that eveyone seems to be in, letters hugs and all. Working is just so, you know, monotonus.

Here for 10 days and i can safely say i can complete my work if i left my brain at home. Fret not though, i'm still working my brain, maybe just the right one thought. Giving tuition/ Helping 3 people in math. And that's what my date tonight will be about. Teaching my brother vectors:(

On a brighter note, cash is coming in. Trying really hard not to spend it. But once I go to HK next month, HAha.

Shall go back to reading my sad storybook. I hate writing you know. whatever.

Revival!!!!!

2008-02-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

Okay, it wasnt exactly dead,maybe just having a real long sleep.yeah of 2 years. Honestly didn't even know it was alive and had no intention of waking it up.UNTIL i started reading my past posts n realised the memories that i stored here.K sounds so cheesy,but i ACTUALLY do remember the some of the times i sat typing them. But going to make some changes though. No more singlish and as much as possible, type in proper sentences. If you already started laughing, shut up and learn to be more encouraging :)

So now you know why I'm back here. The reason why I was actually at my blog in the first place: I'm so bored at the office I've started to surf the net. And no, I'm not slacking instead of doing work, i really finished my work, for now. Its only a tempoary receptionist job at a law firm so yeah what do you expect. Fifty bucks per day and considering the fact that its quite relaxed here, pay's pretty decent.

Now, what I've been doing the past 3 years, after computer club ended and the busy me wasn't free enough to come back here. awwwww. Anyhow cleared the O's, ended up in SRJC after 3 months in SAJC. Was a cultural shock when i first when there. Ended up in council which doesn't give you much time left after including lessons and studying. Met some really good friends. Finished my A's and now waiting for my results. Hmmm that about sums it up. Wasn't the best time in my life, but I won't change anything about it. Learnt alot the 2 years.

For now, I guess this is long enough. I'm tired of the rigour of having to write pages of essays so my posts shall be short and sweet. haha. Going to surf the net. yeah. again. sh says i should read up about new things but lazy sia :)

2005-04-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

waha. this is NOT joyeee. (who accidentally loves xiu (me!) . yes. we're accidentally in love. wahaha)

she wanted me to update for her. so...
latest happenings:
1. we're accidentally in love.
2. we're still accidentally in love.
3. we'll always be accidentally in love.

ok. enuff of the crap. (:

You give & take away

2005-03-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

i miss thailand!!! was daydreaming in sch the other day when i dun noe when the subject of thailand came up. than i was thinking back wad we were doing there on tt day. think it was a tues. yar. rmbed tt we were prayerwaking around the town tt day. than i was lyk wad m i doing here in singapore. leading such a can i say "meaningless" life. than i was lyk aiyar heck. than was reading the daily bread at nite.

Many of our recurring complaints focus not on what we don't have, but on what we do have and find uninteresting. Whether it's our work, our church, our house, or our spouse, boredom grumbles that it's not what we want or need. This frustration with sameness has been true of the human spirit since the beginning.
Notice the protest of God's people about their menu in the wilderness. Recalling the variety of food they ate as slaves in Egypt, they despised the monotony of God's current provision: "Our whole being is dried up; there is nothing at all except this manna before our eyes!" (Numbers 11:6).
God provided exactly what they needed each day, but they wanted something more exciting. Are we tempted to do the same? Oswald Chambers said: "Drudgery is the touchstone of character. There are times when there is no illumination and no thrill, but just the daily round, the common task. Routine is God's way of saving us between our times of inspiration. Do not expect God always to give you His thrilling minutes, but learn to live in the domain of drudgery by the power of God."
During the boring times of life, God is working to instill His character in us. Drudgery is our opportunity to experience the presence of the Lord. —David McCasland

dun u find it so true? hav to keep reminding myself tt theres a purpose for everything God puts me thru in life. yupp so help me ok? talking bout life. everyone seems kinda of depressed lately. cheer up pple. class has been getting prep talks everyday for the whole week from at least 5 pple n the week has nt ended. yarr. got back progress report today. L1R5 20. ok i expected worse. guess how much i got 4 chem. 26%. i hope tt convinces my dad to let me drop it. hmmm life is fun. cant wait to c wad happens the next day. i'm lyk falling sick at least twice a month n i seldom even fall sick last time. dun noe y but i rrli dun noe wad will happen tmr n the best part of it is i dun care. ok lar mayb nt dun care but i kinda of at peace wif tt. ok i'm kinda of lazy to type anymore so mayb hopefully i'll update soon. oh 1 more thing. I CANT WAIT FOR SYNERGIZE!!!

2005-03-05T08:12:00.001+08:00

I M SO NOT A TOY CHICKEN!!! Thanks a lot lor yx. nt forgetting mich. haiz. in cc now. our new teacher is called mr hay. the last teacher was mr say. wads the world cmg to mama? haha. super hyper now. tryin to channel my hyperness to writin tis. yucks nk stop burping. haha. we're playin wordracer wif mr hay. or rather some pple r.n i'm eating milo choc. tts y cc rules. pity those pple who hv cca lyk 3 times a week n they train so hard. n if u're readin tis, than yes i'm suaning u. okok. i shall stop my nonsense n update bout my life. hmmm....

joyeee aka toy chicken loves xiu. buahaha. aargh my post is being invaded by aargh its too horrible to say aargh tang yan xiu aka xiu xiu. go nk go nk go go go nk. haha. shes playin wordracer 4 us. oh yeah we're the first.

okok i'm rrli gg to update now.

life: still pretty much the same but i'm learning, yes learning to enjoy wadever comes my way. yar so positive rite. wonder how long it'll last.anyhow turning 16 is no wad different from being 15. haha. lyk duh rite. but its o's tis year. aargh. ok in approximately 9 months i'm free!!! last day is 18th november. cant wait. fav date in year 2005 for me: 1811. haha. oh yar my hp is confiscated durin the weekdays. how sad can it get.
sch: hmmm the sec 4 '04 gt their results so the baton's been totally passed to us. how stressful. huh wadever. dad wants me to study from 8 to 10. but its good 4 me. yar. love 4e6 '05. u guys rule. hving cg everyday durin recess. sometimes its dissapointing but God rrli answers prayers.
home: still fighting lyk everyday wif my bro. tryin to stop. nt easy k?
frens:love u guys loads. even if i dun say. yupp.hmmm nt rrli in the mood to make new frens but rrli wna get to noe those tt i noe better. yarr. last thing. thanks 4 being my fren.
God:growing more everyday. cant say the walk is easy but its def interesting. 4 those who dun noe. he's def 100% real. sometimes i feel tt he's nt there but i realise tt i'm the one whose nt there. so God i pray tt for every decision i make in my life, big or small, u'll always b the centre of it all.

haha we're guessing our teacher's weight now when he was in sec 4. haha. the ans is 95kg. haha. now his 80kg. haha. ok lyk wadever. hmmm gtg soon. gg to watch the softball match in sch now.or mayb not. vs bedok north. who will win. of course us lar. haha. ok byee. till the next time i blog.

2004-12-27T15:33:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas pple!
ok i noe i'm lyk 2 days late but its the thought that counts rite. anyway i oso havent updated in lyk more than a month? so i've updating now or rather tryin to. so pray that i finish writing tis or i'll never complete it.

youth camp- hmmm... wad can i say? as usual it was great. juz love being in God's prescense. but thats not our purpose on earth. we're suppose to go tell the world. u noe go tell it on the mountains over the hills and everywhere. ok wadever. but anyway yar, i'm tryin to. so help me yar? yupp. and He thought me to forgive. n He cleaned up the hurt inside. hah. loved the times spent wif frens. grew closer to the region. love u guys loads! ok thats all i'm gg to say cos i'm too lazy to write n it happened lyl so long ago.

fever'04- aargh!!! miss the food there. not to mention the pple. but seriously the pple there rrli need God. compared to the last trip, i rrli saw the need in the pple's lives. even in the schools, the kids look lyk they're happy, they're smiling, playin wif u, laughin but inside u rrli dun noe wads gg on. lots of them come from broken homes. but u cant do anything except love them. its sad but due to time n language barrier, we cant do much. even in the communities, u c girls, some that look younger than u, pregnant, some wif their second or third child. children running along the roads filled wif cars, climbing trees. u get the idea.

ok i need to go. will write soon. haha.

2004-11-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

ok. so we're gg to start a net(cell grp) in sch.n yar god is already doing things. at first i din rrli noe how to lyk u noe bring it up. scared of pple's reactions??? ok tis is so exciting. anyway spoke to alicia n shu yi juz now n shu yi oso wanted to start one. so yar... ok n i heard dawn oso wanted to start one or was interested but anyway, i believe its God's doing. esp aft the msg by doug lambert. if u havent heard it go get the tape. its rrliiii good. so anyway yar... if u're from tkgs n wna join us, juz tag ok? n if u're nt from my sch, u can still pray for us n yar everything.... ok i'm juz gg to leave everything to him but yar tis is gg to b so exviting. haha.
~ rmb to pray~

2004-11-24T09:55:00.000+08:00

Someone's Watching Over Me
by Hilary Duff

I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
A voice of reason, I forgot I had
All I know is your not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight
So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me
I’ve seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is
Yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment, to my dreams
So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me
It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you’ll find
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark, I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

~such a nice song~

hyper

2004-11-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm finally updating. yar. hols r here but i find that i'm juz wastin my time. i wanna do something useful man. nt juz slacking n gg out everyday. okay i'm supposed to do my hw, clean my rm, arrange the photos but yar. havent started at all. ok, shall stop whining. had a weird day today. mood swings. went out wif jo, tuckie n jin guo but was so bored. haiz. anyway came home n found out my bro's not at home n my dad is cmg home late. so yeah. can watch tv n SI. hopr sly gets out. n 4 those who din noe, my dad is super strict so yar. cant even watch tv. on top of other things. wif studying being the lease of my worries. haiz. sad. anyway came home n my mum wanted to watch tv but din even noe how to switch it on. wahaha. kept laughing. wait till my bro hears tis. than when i was wtching tv, the yakult woman kept calling me auntie. man, do i look so old. i mite look lyk i'm 17 or 18 but an auntie? hello? i'm 15 n not an auntie. haiz. blah blah blah. told yar i was hyper. shootz happy fish has started. byeeeeeeeeee.
~ hyper~

Love

2004-11-19T17:32:00.000+08:00

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,but have not love, I gain nothing. 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13

2004-11-04T07:21:00.000+08:00

bout my post on oct 31, i can said i wrote in a fit of anger. i sort of regret it. sorry bout the tone n launguage but that was something lyk my exact thoughts than. i thought of deleting it but i think if i dare to think lyk that, i mite as well admit it. the chi saying gan zhuo can dang. dare to do dare to admit or something lyk that. anyway, pray for me yar?
~ in sch now~

2004-11-03T15:40:00.000+08:00

gah. i'm super confused. i guess its over. dun noe if its the rite thing to do but i'll juz let nature take its course. not that i dun wanna do it but i dun think it'll last. so wads the point. dun go into things that u noe it wont last. i did it n its sad. but god is real n he lasts. forever. cant wait to meet him. cant wait to die n meet him. hey. although i said no but we still can frens k? pple dun hav to b attached to get to noe each other more n b good frens. anyway tis is my choice.accept it. bout the part being frens, its up to u. juz rmb, i'll still b there for u yar?even if i'm not, God is there. so juz enjoy life as it is n yar take things as they come. take care. n stay wif him forever.

Welcome To My Life
by Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2004-11-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

i'm so pissed off aft reading her blog. lyk hello? who was the one who started it? juz walking from the second floor to the first n we didnt talk to you n u saw u feel left out. how old r u? muz we talk to u every second of our lives. we have a life to ok? not entirely devoted to u. open your mouth. gold wont fall out. we dun own u a single thing. do u mean that when u comfort us or talk to us, u expect us to return u the favour? u make frens so u get things back in return is it? stop trying to make us feel guilty. n others to take pity on u. they mite. but we dun care. i still hav lots of things to say but i've juz decided aft reading that i wont waste my time replying your letter which was equally dumb. wanted to but i'm not. if jo wants to, thats her prob. i 'm being a bitch now but i can b worse.
~lettigoutsteam~

2004-10-26T09:34:00.000+08:00

greater is he that is in u than he that is in the world.
grace kept repeating it till it is still stuck in my head and its already tues. haha. mayb shd try study lyk that. anyway thought bout it when i was gg to sleep. many times we let things stop us from gg out but we keep forgeting that he is on our side. n wif him nothing is impossible. so i'm trying hard to leave it all at his feet n do wad i'm supposed to do. hack my frens n relatives.
anyway that was juz a though from me. my router is spoilt. lyk so dumb. aargh. so i'm allowed to use my mum's com for a short while. n now she has to use it. so bye.
pls: i'm ok. trust me.

confused

2004-10-22T14:57:00.000+08:00

i noe i havent updated in a gazillion dog years but gah. very lazy. n my typing seriously sux. anyway my results are lyk bad.

eng- C5
chi- C5 or C6
emaths- C5
amaths-C6
phy- D7
chem- C5
hist- B3
SS/lit- C5
its so bad. all c. especially my maths. anyway enough bout those exams till the end of the year.

things have been happening. gg loss some frens. or mayb already lost them. seriously think that i have problems maintaning friendships or relationships for that matter. dun noe y. its prob me. or is it? some pple say i'm dao. i juz cant b bothered u noe. sometimes i try so hard but it juz doesnt come out the way u want it to. juz feel lyk giving up. to juz let it out for the world to c. in black n white. sometimes i think i'm leading 2 lifes. u noe lyk that bk dun noe wad jekeyl or hyde or wadever. the me when i'm in sch or in church n the me when i'm not wif classmates or church pple. gah u wont get wad i mean unless u belong to the other catergory. tryin to juz stay on the straight n narrow. its difficult i noe but help me. pls. i'm not making sense. again. juz whining n whining. when will i ever talk sense? never. someone talk sense into me.
u dont noe wad its lyk to b lyk me. a line from welcome to my life. nice song. tryin to dl princess diary royal engagement but its taking lyk so long. tryin to return the endless testimonials. gah. i think i'm having mood swings. 1 moment i'm lyk depressed the next is the bo chap than aft that i feel crappy. gah wadever. i'm not pmsing lor. thank u.
gg sentosa next wk. mum got a rm at rasa sentosa. finally can suntan. doubt i can get dark. nvm. no harm tryin. think positive man. haha. looks who talking rite?
feel so fake. cant explain y. aarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................ i wanna scream n go on n on even when i have no voice. to scream till i... ... dun noe.gah. sorry. juz wanted to let out.
~ confused~

2004-09-29T14:56:00.000+08:00

i have a new com. actually its not mine, its my mum's. n its ugly but usable. lots of new stuff inside. ibm. never had it b4. hope my ever irritating bro doesnt download some stupid game n crash the com lyk last time. gotta start studyin when my mum comes home. gah. rrli rrli need lots n lots of discipline to lie down n study n not fall asleep. needs lots of discipline for other stufff. rrli lack in it. gah. i'm so sick. not literally. my nose hurts.
~depressed~

2004-09-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

growl... my com is in hospital so i have to survive using the sch com. exams are cmg.Booooo. still cant bring myself to study properly. i 'study' by staring at my notes n nothing ever goes into that brain of mine. have lots of things to say but due to the slowness of the sch server, the bell for the end of the recess ig gg. till than.

btw, if u dun understand my previous post. forget it. it doesnt concern u.

~ till than. happy studying~

2004-09-16T08:01:00.000+08:00

The smile on your face
Lets me knowThat you need me

but do i?

There's a truthIn your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me

but will i?

The touch of your hand says
You'll catch meWhenever I fall

but will i?

You say it best
When you sayNothing at all

but do i?

~gah~

guai me

2004-09-16T06:36:00.000+08:00

cant believe i'm so guai. did 4 chapters yesterday. 2 on hist n 2 on chem. have to study somemore later. planned my exam schedule( c so guai? ) n have to do at least 4 chapts a day to b able to finish in time for the exam. gah. juz pray that it'll last n that i'll hav the discipline to mug everyday. n that i'll rmb wad i mug on the day of the exam. i juz mugged for my chi lyk last wk for my ca than yesterday i couldnt even rmb them. mayb i do hav short term memory? pray not. hehe. decided to mug properly cos my mum said that if i passed all my subjects, i can play lyk siao during the hols b4 i hav to start mugging for my o's next year. boo!!! so since i didnt noe if i'll fail or not, i decided to mug properly since when my dad comes home, i hav to mug so mite as well do it properly n not waste my time. time is precious. we shd leave each day lyk the last n treasure every minute of it. haha. still trying to do that. heh.
went for the 911 concert on sat. was good. esp the video. many of us noe that there are pple out there but still refuse to "accept" (dun noe if its the rite word) it. but thru the video, we noe that these is real n we can do something for them. mayb not all of them but at least u'll b able to put a smile on a few faces? shouldnt that b worth it? n that if we do go out there, we do it not cos our frens r gg or that u think its so fun or u're bored, but cos u love them lyk He loves them n most importantly, u're doing it for Him. hav the compassion to do something for them.
GIVE THEM A PART OF OUR LIVES!!!
~ being the guai me ~

2004-09-09T02:58:00.000+08:00

finally decided to blog. haha. mug till 1230 last nite. managed to "kick" my bro out of the rm. hehe. slept in the aft yesterday so i couldnt fall asleep at nite, so being the guai me, i went to study. n i seriously studied. i sort of understand rate of reactions but dun rrli noe how to apply it yet. hehe. n i studied 2 chapters of chi. such a sense of accomplishment. haha. but when i woke today, juz felt lyk slacking. nvm i motivate myself to study again later. studying is fun. yeah rite. haha. tell myself that next year i'll study when i come home from school n not slack lyk i usually do now. hope it'll last. hehe. gosh my bro is irritating man. he's reading tis behind my back n doesnt even mind being called kaypoh. feel lyk slapping his face when he sticks his tongue out but cicumstances prevent me from doing so. gah. sad.
went for the post synergize thing on mon, the rally was very good man. the preacher, jeff smith talked bout visions. n he manages to sing n dance while preaching n still gets the message across.the reason y lots of us r not growing is because we dun have visions. c it. say it. seize it. n the reason y it "caught my attention" - jeremy seaward preached bout it b4 at the edge n juz that afternoon, he talked bout it during the workshop. sort of lyk hitting me 3 times wif the same thing. its true but lots of time u tell pple or juz to yourself that u need to accomplish something or mayb stick to wad u believe. but the very next moment, when temptation comes your way. bam! u juz forget everything u say or even if u rmb, its so difficult to go back. i dun make promises nowadays cos i'm juz so scared that i'll never fulfill it. but i'm juz gg to try n try n try until mayb one fine day, who noes? i mite do or go in to it. y muz tis b so difficult? y? one day u say u say u'll do tis, the next its all gone. empty promises.
whose life r u mirroring? sometimes things we do unconsiously is due to the fact that we, in our mind, do things that we think is right. we mite not even noe it but its true. the decisions we make, the way we c things, i suppose its all in the mind. it controls. but will u let it control u or will u control it? Run the race n finish it. no matter wad the results.
i leave u that question. to some of u, i mite not even make sense but juz think bout it. won't u. 4 me?